All of my life I have felt like the outsider.
I try not to bother people or to ever let them know I am around.
I have always been the guy who just sticks it out so long that I become one of the crowed.
It isn’t because I was cool or they were looking for that new friend, just I am always around for some strange reason.
One of the few places I didn’t feel that I could be myself, I was dragged away from.
When I got upset and said why I didn’t want to leave it, because I felt like I fit in somewhere for the first time I got a loving response.
I could fit in anywhere, I just had to try harder … O the few things I remember …
That’s wasn’t the issue at the time, and I still don’t think it is today, we can all put on a face and pretend to be someone or something we are not.
We do that at work, church and other places.
How often do we find a place we can be who we are though, and not who we need to be?
All of this being said, I have some darn good people in my life!
I might not hear form them often or them from me … years at a time so times.
I know though that if I call them, that what ever I need done will be done without a thought to how it might be out of their way.
1 of my friends, ok my best after La Wife that is, lives hundred of miles away … OK thousands right now but that isn’t the point of this topic now is it?
We talk once a month and that seems to work out well for us.
2 of my ‘friends’ were my high school bullies … I told you I was off a little!
OK, I guess I need to stop here for a second and break down friends in my eyes?
There is a defined difference in the category of friends.
We have friends, associates, acquaintances and folk we know.
I have only 2 friends, La Wife and Kermit.
The two others I before mentioned are more or less just very close associates.
We as a people really need to come up with a few better adjectives to describe the placement of people in our social lives.
Then I have this other group …
A lot of people call them dorks, dweebs, geeks and nerds.
… I do too a lot of the time …
These are my gamer buddies.
To tell the truth though, I think most of us are just in this group of people because we didn’t fit in anywhere else.
Then again, I see a lot of popular people in this group too who just join up to have fun!
We all play some game or another.
Video Games, WoW, EQ, figure based, RPG’s, LARP’s and so many others.
You might be surprised at some of the people in this group too.
Everyone from Teachers and Truck Drivers, Police and Paramedics to Actors and Attorneys.
I just wanted to somewhat publicly thank all of them.
I have issues and am not the easiest person to get a long with at times.
I also know that I have never and will never fit in all the way, but you keep me around?
You all opened your arms and welcomed me, reluctantly I am sure, into your ranks.
You all make me feel welcome, and that has helped through some dark, dark times!
So thank you all!
If ever I can help out please let me know!
On a side note …
The other plus to being in this group … HELP! … I broke my websites … again …
Just kidding, it isn’t broken.
I am just not smart enough to figure it out :P
