I am not so sure what to say on this.
Part of me wants to try and explain myself … it’s getting over ridden though right now.
Part of me says I should wait to respond and cool down … it’s getting over ridden right now too.
I will say this though, the part about how often I talk to people was not a negative thing per say.
It was more of just, well, that’s a lot more then most people I know talk to there families.

Mom and I already spoke so I guess I just need to address her husband and my sister.

The last Blog was, well an eye opener for me.
I am sure you will say the same thing about it being one for you as well.

Fine one of you thinks I am a baby, and the other thinks I am not worth visiting anymore.
Say and think what you want.
I have been hearing I am childish and a baby a lot lately.
It must be true.
As childish as I am though, I am not going to bad mouth you all so openly, publicly and negatively with hurtful things on purpose to a place where your co-workers, church friends and real life friends can see it.
Even if the first stone was thrown by another, I might have called or E-mailed my assailant.

Most of that Blog wasn’t even about anyone in my direct family.
As my post comment said, there where more people involved in my day that day.
Looking back I can see how and why that Blog can and or would have had this effect though.
I wasn’t in a good place and my mind was wondering into someplace even darker.
The moving to Tonga was a joke.
That was supposed to be the strange and funny part of the Blog.
It didn’t come out that way.
I’m sorry …

I did have fun visiting everyone on Thanksgiving.
Yes, technically it had been years by a calendar’s standard but we only missed one Thanksgiving.
I hope that you can look past me and still injoy the memories of everyone else.
If I did move to Tonga, it is nice to know that because of my actions someone has thrown not only the people of Tonga, but my wife as well, out by saying that they don’t like the attitudes of the people there, and not just of one person.

I am not going to say the last Blog was taken the wrong way, I will say it wasn’t written the right way.
Words are a powerful tool.
They can be used and taken both good and/or bad.
They can also be as clear as a bell to one person, while as muddy as a swamp to another.

Happy 4 year anniversary honey!
I was going to write out something wonderful, and now you get this.
I can’t believe that I have once again ruined a day I worked so hard to make perfect for, with actions from my past yet again.
And no, I am not blaming anyone else other then myself.
It is 100% my fault, and my choice to leave this as it is.

That’s it, I’m sorry, take care, I’m done!